Celebration of Life

Today is my birthday and I thought, what better day to write my first blog post.  Twenty eight years….crazy!  What a journey I have been on.  My life thus far has been one full of adventure, beauty, intrigue, betrayal, deceptions, joys, sorrows, victories, failures, and the faint whispering in the midst of it all; an often unidentified ache within my soul, something I was born desiring and which beneath the rise and fall of all other desires, passionate moments, and times of silence; night and day, year by year, I have looked for, watched for, and listened for.  I have never had it but I continue to yearn for its complete unveiling.  All of the things that have ever possessed my soul have been but hints of it, echo’s that seem to die away as soon as they reach my ear but if it was ever to fully manifest itself, I would know in my heart, that here at last is the thing I was made for.  I am discovering that this seemingly unattainable desire, this life I so desperately long for, this deep craving that is harbored in my soul, can only be experienced as I step outside of myself; it requires a continual act of self-abandonment.  My soul has a shape like no other soul; it was created with a particularly shaped void and only the Lord Himself can fill its intricate contours.   As I give Him access to those secret chambers of my heart, that unidentified ache begins to be filled as He lifts my head to meet His gaze.  He reminds me of the promise that one day all will be restored and in Him alone will I find myself fulfilled; it was Him that I was created for and He alone gives true life.  Oh, how many times I have searched for that life elsewhere.  I stand back in wonder and humility at His unfathomable grace that continues to draw me back to Himself, His total forgiveness of all my sin, and the strength from His Holy Spirit to get back up and finish the race as His presence encompasses me.  Thank you for this life Lord, thank you for Your life.  Come back soon so we can experience perfect life!